We (Amelia's therapists and I) just decided last week that we are going to take some time off of therapy at DeVos. Let me tell you...I was not jumping for joy as I thought I would. The weekly appointments were cumbersome at first, but before I knew it, it was just our routine...every Friday morning for almost 2 hours for 17 months. Amelia was just 2 weeks old when she saw her therapist for the first time...
|One of our many firsts...therapy at DeVos|
|Last day of therapy...|
So, as I wept in the early morning hours for my daughter, I was drawn to Jeremiah 1:5 and I know God had to literally take me to it. Jeremiah 1:5 says, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart." I had to be reminded - in fact, it had to stare me in the face - that there is nothing I or anyone could have done differently to create my beautiful Amelia. She is exactly what God wants her to be and He has promised to follow through with His plans for her (Jeremiah 29:11). I have to believe this for myself, my family and mostly for her. God has showed me so many blessings I would have never known if it wasn't for her...He definitely set her apart. Another beautiful thing about my Lord is that, in my sadness, He reminded me of this in a very vivid way. On the last day of therapy, Sam had to come with me. He was supposed to stay at a friend's, but it didn't work out and it was a blessing in disguise. God played a scene in my mind from that day that I will never forget. Amelia was in the gait trainer at therapy and Sam was beside her hunched down with his hands on his knees cheering her on in such a tender way with every step. And let me tell you, she already adores her big brother, so the look on her face looking at him was also priceless. I never knew I would have to depend on my children this young, but I needed my little boy that day. I also realized that I would not have those moments without this trial. There have been many struggles over the last 17 months, but the joys that have made life sweeter than I ever thought possible, have topped them...thank you, God.
While we wait for news on what, when and where, please pray that Amelia's doctor will have clear direction on what would be the best option for her. Pray for us as a family, that we continue to find joy in the struggles so that we can be a testament to God's amazing grace.
"His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor His delight in the legs of a man; the Lord delights in those who fear Him, who put their hope in His unfailing love."